I used to live in a small italian neighborhood in a couple block radius up till i was 12 or so give or take a few years. Just like the ones you see on TV or in those classic movies(with the grocery store, deli, candystore, etc) Everyone was american and spoke english . There was a sense of pride and people all said hi , opened their doors, and shared things and just had respect.
I moved 10 minutes away but in this area and that old area it has changed. Everyone is still white but , russian, chinese, polish, jewish and more but no one speaks english, no one talks to each other , only if you speak that language, and if you dont speak it and say hi in english ;they will ignore you or shrug their shoulders.
I guess everyone that was american and spoke english moved out in the late 80's to early 90's whether they are black , spanish or italian. Becasue some of my friends were of those races and they moved out because foreigners took over and dirtied up the place. All the stores now are in foreign languages. YOu go into parks and the signs are in foreign and same with the library and more.
I feel like an outsider in my own birth neighborhood. Im the only one here, all my friends moved out when they were 10-15 yrs old or so or even upt o 18 or 19 BUT i never did. I was left here with my parents.
Dont get me wrong i love NYC, its got so much to offer and its my home but im not happy here anymore and no one talks to me, ...i feel like im just dead. And even no one would care. I guess im lving in the past of my old neigborhood and cant move on. Im clinging to the history.
I want to get out, i dont fit in here. I dont know where to go. I live in cali for 6 months and moved back here...big mistake coming back.
I just dont know what to do.
PLease tell me why i cant leave,(my parents would leave with me they said if we found a great place) but i cant get the nerve to go, i feel like im letting myself down and selling out. I would love to move back to cali since its the closest thing to nyc. I just am scared that i will not get what i had out of nyc growing up. All my friends left nyc like i said years and years ago.
A heard that 1 out of every 10 people come from NY. And then they move out further west. Even famous people. I guess cause its the frist place immigrants come to when they get off the boat.
What can i do to feel better and just leave like all the strong people did,
im really not happy here deep inside
thanksWhy cant i leave NYC but other are strong to leave and move on?
I would ask you what's wrong with new people moving into the area's?? It sounds like you're afraid of people who aren't like you and who think the way that you do. Have you ever tried to get to know any of the new people in the area??? I have lived in Queens all of my life and both of the areas that I've lived in have changed drastically since the time that I moved in. I've learned to change with the times and to enjoy and learn to appreciate the new people in the area.I realize that things change and if you want to be happy you have to learn to change with them. IF you want a small Italian area than you should move either to Little Italy in Manhattan, Archer ave in the Bronx or Inglewood Queens. I don't know much about Brooklyn but find another Italian area and live there if that's what you're missing. I think that you should learn to live with others as this world is becoming more and more diverse and it would be better for you in the long run. You should also wonder why you're 32 and still living at home, that might be more of an issue than the fact that your neighborhood has changed.
I think that in reality that's the bigger problem for you, but that you have hard time with that so you focus on the fact that the area's changed since you were a child.Why cant i leave NYC but other are strong to leave and move on?
Pick a coast and stick with it! lol.
But I know what you mean, from what I've herd New York has really changed though the 90's, the old deli's became chain stores, and the old cultural places became banks and stuff...
I think Chicago still has alot of good neighborhoods. You might check out chicago, but it's not for everyone. Maybe move to Boston?
I mean you don't really say how much money you have, I mean if you can just move from L.A. to NY and back no problem then you must be ok on money.
I think you need to stop hanging on and just move to a different part of the city.
What have you got to fear? Maybe you need to explore all of New York City, Start building yourself up more. Go downtown and walk around a few days in a row maybe? I think you just need to have more action going on to just your nerves up . . .
I know you'll move someday, or maybe you'll even learn to love Brooklyn for how it's changed. I'm sure you have a great accent and maybe even look for places out west that are looking for people with your look for roles? I mean there are options, I know that, you know that, your parents know that.
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